What should I do when the truth isn't good?

Specifically, I am asking this question because I feel like the truth about me has doomed me to fail in my life's endeavors. I know that the prevailing answer will be to tell the truth anyway, but my argument is that doing so will doom me to the cycle of failures and dead ends that I am already experiencing. I have always had a hard time with finding "the right person," or "the right place," or "the right job." I have never been able to accept the idea that it will "just happen" or that God "has a plan," because I've seen too many people p me up or I have been defeated too many times when I have put in so much effort to achieve the goal. I feel like the truth is tearing my life apart, yet at the same time, I don't want to live a lie. I just don't believe that the truth about who I am (or at least who I think I am) is acceptable to anyone else. I don't believe that "the right job" or anything like that even exists for me. I feel so much like God's tool: serving in some way or another, but not benefitting from it at anytime. I've hoped and dreamed and prayed for so long, but I have never prevailed. In fact, I've watched people go right on from me and find the love of their lives. I've also been supplanted by colleagues for jobs I thought for sure I would get. When is it my turn? When will the truth finally set me free?