!!!! i still in love with my ex!!!is really crazy to move on with out him?

hi!! when a relationship is over is really hard to let go? how can you move on when one relationship?is not work out just keep going in and out of the same relationship?I am so tired of getting hurts but i love him so much i been 3year 1/2 with my ex and i all way do any thing for him i been there for him he been that long no having a jobs and i take cared of him of every thing of the house and he thi side to student music go every single day to the studios come home and 6 in the morning and he want me no to say any thing went i work hard to bring the food and pay the bill pluz give him money for petrol all the time and i just ask him for get some time for me too but he say to me he was so busy in the studios right now he say to me he know what he want in life and what he want is he music he not want a family right now he cant sit it down right now he dont want to have a babes with me right now so for that reason we break up how can i get over it and not call him and begin?